Can you tell I’m trying to make relevant posts? I am! I’m doing it!
All the food; all the family; all the love; all the coffee with Baileys.
I’ve always loved Christmas; even as I get older and the holidays get swept up with exams and flights home and life gets more and more stressful, when it finally comes around I’m always filled with so much joy and love and feelings that I can really only describe as… Christmas cheer. I think that’s what it’s all about, really – that warmth that’s just there. You know when you’re sitting around a bunch of people you care about and you just can’t stop going “I just love you guys!”? That’s me right now. I’m drinking apple cider while my baby sister draws me (“but as a witch, and no double chin” was my request. I think she’s drawing me with deer ears. No one really understands what’s going on anymore) and my mom plays some puzzle game on the computer and there’s Christmas music on. My baby sister isn’t exactly a baby anymore – she’s sixteen now, almost done high school, and much better looking/more talented than me. It’s alarming.
We’re coming to the end of the lunar cycle right now – something I only know because I’ve been googling the moon a lot lately. The end of the cycle – the Balsamic moon – is a time of release; it’s time to let go of all that no longer serves you and make space for positivity and good vibes. It feels right that soon a brand new moon will be in the sky; I’m ready for fresh energy and new beginnings. Really am I ever not ready for a new beginning?
this trip home has been so perfect for me; I was starting to feel a little lost in my life in Toronto. You can’t always just hop on a plane and run away when you’re feeling like that, I suppose, but this time it happened to work out. And now I’m heading home in a few days and as heart breaking as it is to say good bye to my family again I am so looking forward to being back to business as usual (only minus the studying, at least for a while!). I’m so lucky that I now have two incredible places to call “home”. I’ve been fully overwhelmed by gratitude for days now.
Whether you celebrate Christmas or not, I hope today was completely magical; you all deserve the very best.