a blog by a mess of a woman.

HI, remember me?

Listen, you probably should get used to many unexplained absences from me — it’s a common theme in my blogging life. And because I have wasted much of my life apologizing and promising to do better in the past… I am not going to do that anymore.  Let’s just pretend it didn’t happen, k?

ANYWAY my current favourite song.  Are you ready?

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okay, so I’ve been obsessed with this song lately, and I owe it all to the “play song radio” option on Spotify.  Seriously, if you’re not regularly making use of this, you gotta.  I’m never really that keen on the Discover Weekly playlists (I’ve come across a few gems, but for the most part I think I have too much different music saved for it to really make the playlist be cohesive?  That’s my theory) but this is a fantastic way to come up with a ton of new songs that have kind of a similar vibe.  Enter: Sun Tan by Wallows.

This one came from the song radio of a Pale Waves song — information I am sharing with you because, hey, I’m also really into Pale Waves.  plus it’s International Women’s Day and I really regret not writing about a woman (or women).

I ALSO, upon doing a bit of research, realized that the kid from 13 Reason Why (Dylan Minnette) is in Wallows, which is kind of cool (or not, if you hated the show).

Besides listening to this song over and over again, I also bought my Warped Tour ticket today, so look out for a full on Warped Tour post in the next little while (just as soon as I get some of my homework done….).  Who’s got their tickets?  Now that the line up’s released it officially feels like Winter is ending — and dear lord, it’s about time.


are you even a pop-punk band if one member doesn’t have a solo acoustic side project?


I’ve had a super productive day, complete with a soundtrack of old school Lily Allen and sad acoustic jams by none other than Speak Low If You Speak Love.

Ryan Scott Graham, the bassist of State Champs, has been releasing music under this (admittedly long-winded) name since 2015.  If you ask me, though, Nearsighted is miles ahead of 2015’s Everything But What You Need.  While the latter was a solid album, Nearsighted brings something new to the table; a whimsical, nostalgic vibe that is so obviously different from State Champs.  It’s a refreshing change, and a fun departure from what is (and I say this with the utmost affection) the most predictable of pop-punk.

It was a perfect soundtrack for meal prepping, and it had the added bonus of being something I wouldn’t be embarrassed to have on if my roommates came into the kitchen.  The standout track for me was definitely Contrasting Colours, though truth be told I can’t put my finger on exactly why.  It just stuck with me long after the album was done.  If you want to check it out, you can do so here!

Side projects were such a thing back in the day — are they less common now?  Or am I just paying less attention?  Please inform me of your fave down below (or via email at,  if you want!).


My boy Leo, new tunes from waterparks, and of course the superbowl halftime show (because I’m relevant…..right?)

Happy super bowl sunday, pals!

I have spent my entire day avoiding my responsibilities and watching confusing Leonardo Dicaprio movies (Shutter Island, which tbh I didn’t find that confusing but apparently the internet did, and now Inception, which let’s be real, doesn’t make any sense at all).  I’m taking a break from this epic marathon to watch the halftime show and eat some chicken wings, because that feels like the right thing to do.

During the approximately 10 minutes of studying I did today I threw on the new Waterparks album, Entertainment, and honestly I am in love.  Truthfully I’ve found these guys to be a little hit-or-miss in the past (I’m obsessed with the songs I like, but the songs I don’t… well, I just don’t).  So far though this album has me hooked; I’m into it.  And Peach (Lobotomy) is especially fun.


They also just have such a strong aesthetic, and I can’t pretend I’m not a sucker for aesthetics.

ANYWAY, now that my love for Justin Timberlake has been officially reignited and the underdogs are #thriving (right?  I think that’s what’s happening?  I don’t understand football.) I think it’s time for me to throw on a face mask, make a cup of tea, and get down to business.

Please please please share any and all thoughts you may be having on the halftime show, the new waterparks album, or literally anything else!  I would love to hear from you.


all of my january jams (haaaaa), my feelings about warped tour, and shaking my ass to new fall out boy.

HELLO internet — can you believe it is february already?  Welcome to the month of looooove!  I am currently writing from a booth in Panera, so safe to say my february is off to a pretty good start.  I know it’s a rip off, but my love for Panera is real (though I suspect unrequited).

Anyway!  What have you been listening to?  How have you been feeling?

I have been quietly setting aside songs all month so that once it was over I could hit you all with a playlist of everything I really loved  — so here it is!  my january jams.  Featuring all of my “song of the day”s, some new tunes, and some old tunes that I’ve just been really into.  Check it out below or here and let me know what I missed!

Today’s song made it into January’s list (and might make it into February’s as well tbh) because I’ve been listening to it non stop for several weeks.  HOLD ME TIGHT OR DON’T is, as far as I’m concerned, the stand out track on Fall Out Boy’s new album Mania.  It brings it all — a driving beat, a fun melody, quirky lyrics.  It’s danceable, but not boring.  I’m obsessed and I don’t care who knows it.

The whole album is pretty good (I mean, it’s Fall Out Boy)… but I can’t say it’s on this level.

ALSO I am counting down the days until Warped Tour tickets go on sale — 24 left!  Growing up I was never able to go and it has been my DREAM since I was like 14, so I’m beyond excited to experience it this year.

What’s your dream Warped line up?

Anyway, it’s probably time for me to abandon Panera in favour of the library and get some real work done; I wish I could spend all of my time writing about Warped Tour and Fall Out Boy, but alas, real life calls.

until next time! xx


good morning world!

it’s a dreary Monday here in Toronto, and I slept through my 9am lecture.  Truthfully I’m not that upset about it — something about three hour lectures in an empty movie theatre first thing in the morning is really unappealing, if you ask me.  Instead I spent my morning drinking coffee in bed and writing in my journal.  I may be taking my permanent vacation (congratulations! your imitations! … etc) mindset a little too literally…

I’ve been listening to The Maine all morning after I watched all the snaps from 8123 day yesterday — they’re so cute, it makes my heart so happy — and birthday in los angeles came on.  Honestly I skip this song a lot because it’s sort of depressing,  but it really fit the vibe today and it got me thinking about how I got to do the whole running away to the city thing.

It also got me thinking about the fact that Canada has a very limited number of big cities to run away to.  I grew up on the West Coast, in a little town on Vancouver Island (B.C.), and Toronto was always my dream city.  No one else really talked about moving here the way I did, but in the year and a half since I’ve been around at least five people from my high school have moved here.  Two girls I grew up with actually live within two blocks of me!  It really is the most New York/LA kind of place we have —  where dreams come true, you know?

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Forever Halloween

this ain’t a scripted movie… I don’t drive a fancy car… those flashing lights don’t mean a thing to me… 

I had my fair share of I-can’t-do-this-I-don’t-belong-here moments when I moved.  I’ve seen a hundred movies and read a thousand books about people who move to the city and realize how hard it is.  They get caught up and swept away in all the people, lost in the lights and the noise and overwhelmed by the speed of everything.  I always thought it was silly, but I was finally able to see how not everyone was meant for life in a big city — I thought maybe I wasn’t meant for it either.

It’s not like I have it all figured out now or anything, but I feel like I’ve carved out a space for myself here, as one of the millions of confused souls in this place.  It feels pretty good.

Remember back in the day when your blog was like your diary — not like your personal ad space?  Blogs were written like stories, nothing was #spon and no one had a content calendar.  And, okay, as much as I know there must be a reason that style went by the wayside, I miss it.  That’s why I’ve decided to start making these song of the day posts.

Simple, casual, and honestly self centred.  Just a post about the song that’s been in my head all day, and whatever else I feel like telling my captive audience.  Lucky you!

So today’s song is Cheetah Tongue, by the Wombats — it’s a real jam, and brand new.  I have a bit of a thing for songs that make me feel like I’m in a movie, and this one definitely delivers.  Weird, I know.

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Anyway the song is off the new album Beautiful People Will Ruin Your Life, out on February 9th.  It’s exactly the combination of cute indie music + quirky lyrics + dark theme that you’d expect from the Wombats, and just different enough for us to look past the fact that they haven’t put out anything new since 2015.

In other news, today is kind of the ultimate get your shit together day.  Are you ever on a total roll, then one thing happens and next thing you know… everything is a disaster?  That’s my current state of affairs, and it’s not pretty.  I totally lose my motivation once my room gets messy or I start to fall behind on school work.  I desperately want to be that person who is always on point, but it doesn’t seem to be in the cards for me.

SO yeah, it’s a day of laundry, hot coffee, and catching up on school work for me.  But as I go about it I can’t stop thinking about vacation, and what makes a vacation, and the fact that I could call this a vacation right now if I really wanted to.

Because I mean, I love a beach and bikini vacation as much as the next girl, but the truth is right now when I imagine my ideal trip it involves eating a delicious breakfast every morning, buying my groceries from a market, drinking coffee and scribbling in my journal in charming cafes, looking at art (and making) amazing art, and just generally living it up.  And the truth is… I could do any of those things here, now, today.  Even, I think, while simultaneously listening to a lecture on statistical analysis.  I might not quite be wandering the streets of Paris, but it’s not like there’s any shortage of pastries and paintings in Toronto, right?

Vacation is a state of mind, my friends.  And I would like to be there… once my room is clean.

I have discovered some of my favourite bands of all time by going to a show where I only know one or two bands in the line-up.  I always just assumed that was the point in having a thousand opening bands, ya know?  So when I headed to the Joyce Manor/Wavves joint headliner at the Danforth Music Hall here in Toronto, I had high hopes.

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I’ve loved the California sun-drenched punk vibes of Wavves since high school, but even though their name came up more than once, I never really got around to checking out Joyce Manor.

It turns out that was a mistake.

As soon as the band took the stage I could just tell this was a band that meant something to its fans.  It wasn’t a guilty pleasure band, or the sort of music you put on in the background when your friends come over — this was poetry, and it was moving.  Emotionally and physically, tbh, because I also could not stand still for their whole set.

Reminiscent of Brand New (though I hate to say it what with the latest news about Jesse Lacey), these guys had all the fun emo vibes with just enough maturity to make you take it seriously.  So YES, it is confirmed, you need Joyce Manor in your life — like, yesterday.

my faves:
Constant Headache, Angel In The Snow, Over Before it Began, Catalina Fight Song

check their spotify here!